Imagine yourself in a maze of forgotten corridors, dancing through a time that never truly began. Everything repeats... The lights flicker the same way, the walls hum the same pitch... And yet, everything feels just slightly off. Change without meaning. At first, the absence of dead ends felt like freedom, but now it’s maddening. You long for a conclusion, a destination but every turn leads you further into uncertainty. You’ve been walking for a while now, though you're no longer sure what “a while” means. Time here is unmeasured, and so are you.
This contemporary solo piano piece tries to assemble different colours of liminality, creating both heavy and light ambiences. The musical ideas which vastly differ in each repeat create an unsettling and thick progression which gives its pronoun; gray. It tries to stay within the boundaries of atonality.
This piece is deeply personal. I wrote it during a tough semester, one full of confusion, anxiety, and exhaustion. Most days, I felt stuck in a loop: wake up, work, try to get by, repeat. The days and nights blurred together at the same table, in the same room, probably losing their meaning along the way. Sometimes, it felt like I was wandering my own version of the Backrooms.
The idea of liminality [being between worlds, never fully present] became a mirror for my state of mind. Writing Gray Liminality was my way of giving shape to that emptiness. It was a small act of hope, a way to rebuild some structure from the ruins of routine.
Gray for the emotional fog-like state. Sometimes peaceful, sometimes frightening, but always a little uncertain. And Liminality for that strange, undefined space where reality seems to dissolve.